Writers Curse/Paradox

Ekvilibristiske tanker farer forbi mit indre øje, de ses og registreres men oversættes dårligt af min indre oversætter. De søger i balancegang ud mod gangen ud.. der anes en modtager af anden identitet men i sidste øjeblik falder de ned i dybet af forglemmelse. Endnu en potentiel tanke går tabt.. eller gør den?
For en tanke tænkt er også en tanke erfaret, bittesmå elektroner har faret rundt på hurtige elektronben og vidergivet information af en ikke før set klarhed, og bittesmå elektroner hører til i den herboende verden og ikke den metafysiske, og det må gøre tankerne virkelige?

Men mine tanker virker tidsløse, og manglen på en 4. dimension gør dem til noget uden for årsagen og virkningens verden. Hvis tiden kunne tænke ville den velsagtens mene at tankerne var løjerlige, ligesom mennesker ikke forstår noget udenfor konteksten af tid. Derfor kan mine tanker ikke være tidsløse, da de er opstået i et menneske og selv elektroner skal fra A til B.

Denne sammensmeltning af mine tanker og følelsen af at alt er et materie, en verden, en identitet må derfor være en tankefølelse.. Og nu blev tanken tom!

Ode to a Soul Assassin

Shady business but never shown,

the looming darkness reveals his home,

creeping and crawling within the night,

his mission: to steal a soul tonight!

Thoughts of a nihilist

Self conscious organisms will often try to link everything back to a first cause of everything. The cause of everything is generally perceived to be the creation of the universe and time as we know it. The cause of everything is thought to have a higher meaning. The self conscious organisms understanding of the word 'meaning' is important to understand. The word is linked to the cause of everything and it is the psychological intention that e.g. a human being can have and the cause is the physical manifestation of this psychological intention. So the cause of everything is the physcial manifestation of the creating beings psychological intention. The meaning of life is then equalled with the psychological intention of the creating being. The self conscious living organism will think that this first cause will be the act of a free willed autonomous entity with an ethical understanding such as that of a human being and that this creating being had a specific intention or meaning with creation of the universe in mind. This is what we call religion.

Other self conscious organisms believes in what we know as science. Science also points to the manifestation of a first cause, although it does not believe that any psychological intention of an ethical being lies behind this first cause or the cause of everything.

Now a nihilist as myself believe that no ethical intention has been put into this world by a conscious being. In fact I believe that life in itself has no meaning. But this should not be interpreted as a fatalistic or pessimistic value-less observation. Instead life is a tabula rasa in which meaning can be put. An empty barrel or a blank canvas that can be designed by me in every way I want it. The fact that no ethical being before me and without any consent has defined the meaning of life before I, as me, came into existence is in fact a very positive thing. This draws upon 20th century existentialist thinking.

Finally, a semi-poetic statement that holds some truth, I am just not sure what:

"Fleshy barrels containing observed meaning walking proudly around as the content of the barrel gradually fills up, but never spills a drop sadly.
When the barrel hits the roof of the church, it instantly implodes and the content vapourises without any earthy reminiscence, but a single drop would have quenched the thirst of us."